“Behold, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world.”
Every Sunday during mass, I always feel a pinch inside my conscience whenever I hear the priest say: “Behold, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world. Happy are we who are invited to receive Him.” People in the mass sometimes just mumble and not really understand the response: “I am not worthy to receive You. But only say the word, and I shall be healed.”
I once attended what they call a closed retreat. This was before I even turned 20. We were just in a secluded home in a village in QC and I stayed there for three days. Those three days were of complete silence. You can’t talk even during lunch or dinner. I only spoke to my roommates when I asked if I could go to the bathroom to clean up before bed. I was bored. I wanted to talk to my friends. I resisted what the retreat had to offer.
During lunch of Day 2, one of the leaders read the Footprints in the Snow. It wasn’t until then that I really understood what the message of the tale is. I kept my tears from falling while eating. The afternoon meditation was very powerful that I was able to imagine that Jesus was literally beside me at that time and I cried as much as I could. There He was, offering with His whole heart a chance for me to heal. And yet, I had other things to think about. Things that need not have importance in my life.
I cried so much that I felt He hugged me tight just to make me hear Him say: “You are loved. This is the start of your new life.” I was able to make the best confession I’ve ever made in my entire life. I felt the grace flowing with me throughout the day, the week, and even that entire month.
We are really unworthy to even ask for forgiveness of our sins. Every time we hurt Him because of our own selfishness, we are buried deep into our own pride. We forget that we have already been saved when He died on the cross for us. All we really need to do is to place our focus back on that scene in Calvary and really make a change. For that was the day when Jesus said “It is finished.”
Every Sunday during mass, I always feel a pinch inside my conscience whenever I hear the priest say: “Behold, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world. Happy are we who are invited to receive Him.” People in the mass sometimes just mumble and not really understand the response: “I am not worthy to receive You. But only say the word, and I shall be healed.”
I once attended what they call a closed retreat. This was before I even turned 20. We were just in a secluded home in a village in QC and I stayed there for three days. Those three days were of complete silence. You can’t talk even during lunch or dinner. I only spoke to my roommates when I asked if I could go to the bathroom to clean up before bed. I was bored. I wanted to talk to my friends. I resisted what the retreat had to offer.
During lunch of Day 2, one of the leaders read the Footprints in the Snow. It wasn’t until then that I really understood what the message of the tale is. I kept my tears from falling while eating. The afternoon meditation was very powerful that I was able to imagine that Jesus was literally beside me at that time and I cried as much as I could. There He was, offering with His whole heart a chance for me to heal. And yet, I had other things to think about. Things that need not have importance in my life.
I cried so much that I felt He hugged me tight just to make me hear Him say: “You are loved. This is the start of your new life.” I was able to make the best confession I’ve ever made in my entire life. I felt the grace flowing with me throughout the day, the week, and even that entire month.
We are really unworthy to even ask for forgiveness of our sins. Every time we hurt Him because of our own selfishness, we are buried deep into our own pride. We forget that we have already been saved when He died on the cross for us. All we really need to do is to place our focus back on that scene in Calvary and really make a change. For that was the day when Jesus said “It is finished.”
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